For a cocky bitch who spouts off about how crack whores keep me going, and about how I'm all OKAY and shit with this FET, I had me a pretty OFF morning - my first of this cycle. The kind of morning that had me all STEWING and shit over whether or not I could have my first COFFEE since the FET, the kind of morning that had me all TEARY and shit over how much SUGAR I should have, the kind of morning that took me right back into the bullshit of feeling so VERY responsible for all of this.
That IS, until the husband reminded me how I was really REALLY okay just the other week (ie. crack whores), AND for the last couple months. Until the husband offered to take me HIKING so I'd have more important things to think about than how many GRAMS of sugar I'm consuming. And until he offered to PUNCH me in the gut, so if it DOESN'T work out, HE could feel just as responsible as he knows I will.
Now THAT'S true love.
Sunday, 31 August, 2008
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Nice hubby!
Hope you are ok.
Ahhhh. The spiral of healing and dealing. Not the straight line we expect.
That hubs. He's a keeper.
One awesome husband you have there.
Lori's right you know. Not a straight line at all.
*hug* I'm thinking about you.
Your hubby is a rock! Keep as positive as you can on this shit journey. Thinking of you.
That man of yours - he's too sweet...but then maybe he's a little too sweet, nah sweet is just fine, gah maybe he should tone it down a bit... ;)
that make you feel better? No? Ok then here are some HUGS from SA then... bet THOSE will help!!!
So what's the details on the FET? I need details lady. #? Grade? All that jazz, come on!
Oh, and when I did my FET? Yeah, I freaking went on a business trip less than 24 hours after ET. And ate whatever I wanted. Room service. Coffee. Donuts. Cold stuff. Warm stuff. And whatyya know. Just my observation though, I think docs put too much pressure on us in that we are the reason things work or not. But me? Well, I just think it works whether we do all the "right" things or not. Live your life. I think that's the best condition any embie can stick in.
Nancy, you're dead on with the "do what I want" thing. I'm back to that mentality now, after a couple hours hiking, a little wine, and a good husband to distract me:-). Just had a dumbass moment...
And the embryos, two in, both B+. Blood test scheduled Sept 12 if I make it that far. I guess I should kinda write about it, but this whole transfer vs IVF felt so like a NON-event - in, out, done. Weeeeeeeirdddddd.
Lol, chicklet. That sounds like something my hubby, Mr. S, would offer. And yes, that is true love.
And ya know, sometimes the seemingly 'non-events' turn out to be 'the' event. I went into my 4th IUI much more jaded and less hopeful and did some things during the 2ww I never would have during the other 2 wws. And that's the one that stuck. I'm hoping this is the 'sticker' for you. :)
I can see how it feels non-event to you. For me - I practically had more meds than my stims to get my freaking lining to only get to a 7. And it was like a 3 week long cycle until I even GOT to ET.
Enjoy your coffee. I've been hearing a lot about the studies on caffeine and pregnancy being very flawed. There have been a bunch of studies lately about the health benefits of moderate caffeine intake. So stay away from the Red Bull and enjoy your morning cup!
I'm also a fan of the mental health benefits of chocolate!
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