I'm not really sure how to even put this into words because I can't BELIEVE this is FUCKING happening.
Out of 9 eggs they took out? NINE eggs? ONE fertilized. ONE measly f*g egg.
SIX were immature, TWO were SORTA mature, ONE was FULLY mature. So of course when they put the f*g sperm in yesterday, the SIX immature ones just couldn't have cared less. And when they checked the THREE mature ones this morning, well ONLY this ONE that was slightly ahead of the other TWO had taken. Thankfully it was Grade A PERFECT and had done everything it was supposed to; however the other two fuckers had decided they weren't so sure yet, so as of my 2:17pm call, nothing had f*g happened with those two.
So I transfer TOMORROW. Day 2. Not Day 3 like normal people. Not Day 5 like lucky people. DAY f*g TWO. WHY Day 2? Oh, because seeing how things have gone so f*g SWELL this cycle, they're worried about taking any further risks. However, if by tomorrow's transfer the other two fuckers have decided they actually WANT to be mature about this and take the f*g fertilization, they'll put a second one in too.
So yea, that whole anniversary luck thing? Meh, not so much.
On a lighter note though (uh, don't think there's much that ISN'T lighter than THAT rant eh?), all the comments and encouragement while always appreciated, well, they've been EXTRA appreciated during this particularly "eventful" (or shall I say "uneventful") cycle. I can't put into words how much it means, but know that it means a whole lot more than I can say. So on that same front, please make sure to be as good to my cyclesistas as you've been to me: Amy, Becks, Katie, Geohde, and last but not least, Carrie.
Thursday, 6 December, 2007
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Well fuck.
Chicklet, I was let down when I had a 2-day transfer too, which I was worried about - it's now grown into a four-month fetus, and still going.
It can and does work and I'm just hoping and praying and willing you on. I SO hope you get a call saying those two have decided to wise the fuck up and get mature.
xoxo
Oh no chicklet. Fuck. I was waiting all day for your wonderful fert report. Of course you were waiting all day too, but I was hoping to see 6-9, as you were too.
As topcat says above, 2 day transfers take. And as I've seen before too, only one had made it to transfer and it took.
So I'm clapping and cheering for your one ebmie. Did the little engine that could have a name?
Good luck missy. I'm rooting for you and your embie.
That's a bit of a shit sandwich, but as Topcat said...two day embros turn into babies too. In fact, I think the stats on two and three day are pretty close. So don't count yourself out yet.
Thinking about you lots!
One (esp. a super ultra grade A one) is a lot better than none, but still - man, that bites.
Shit-on-a-crap-and-rye-sandwhich, Chicklet.
You must be crushed, pissed off and well generally irritated at the Universe right now. And I don't blame you in the least.
However, and not going all Polyanna, TC is right. In my clinic a single grade one D2 transfer has up to a 30% chance of working. That's still more than spontaneous odds in a normally fertile couple.
But again, I am sorry that all your eggs hadn't grown up enough to shag in a dish.
xx
J
Well Sonofabitch! I am hoping that the 2 day transfer will be a 10 month process just so you can torture the hell out of this ..because you deserve to!
SHIT. Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit.
Well, despite that let down, I'm keeping hope alive for you that this ONE is THE one. It's definately possible, so that's what we'll focus on until proven otherwise!
That sucks. And it sucks hard. I am so sorry. I don't even know what to say, except for thank you for the support. I will keep my fingers crossed that THIS ONE is the baby you are meant to have.
I'm pulling for the one that wants to prove to the others that there's a right way to get it done. Really f*g hoping for some good news coming your way.
Well I will go ahead and throw a 'FUCK' and a 'SHITASTIC' into the ring. Chicklet I am so sorry that fertilization isn't what you expected and/or wanted it to be.
This whole IVF thing is pretty crazy and there are a million different scenarios that can occur. I am going to pay special attention to Topcat's comment because that sounds extremely promising. Anything can happen! There is no rule book on this stuff so hope shouldn't be lost.
Know that I am thinking about you and hoping for the best possible outcome. We are here for you. The best of luck for tomorrow's transfer!
Shoot...in fact shit will do just nicely. I do hope the 2 shape their ass's into gear and you have at least 2 to transfer.
Grade A is not to be sniffed at....I can only dream about that kind of quality.
Good luck x
Oh Babes, Why does this continue to be so very difficult? To have such a rough stims time, a great (almost suprising) egg result and then to be knocked over with this. Just. not. fair.
As the other, very knowledgeable and wise, ladies have already pointed out, there is still a mighty chance of a baby here. I know it's hard to have your choices taken BUT you won't mind if this one is destined to be. I really hope it is. So much.
Thinking of you xxx
Shit, I'm sorry. I hope that you get some better news at transfer and that you have two.
I wish you could catch a break this cycle.
I'm sorry, man, what a roller coaster! Nothing to deflate your hopes like a shitty fert report. I hope the D2 transfer will work for you.
Poopy! I'm sorry you've had such a rollercoaster ride. It just sucks the big one. I remember on my first cycle I had 8 nice follies, then they only got 5 eggs out of it, and of those only 2 fert (1 with ICSI). I was shocked. I too did 2 day transfer. I felt like a loser.
But we know that 2 day CAN work! Look at Topcat! And keep in mind there are lots of things they can change if there has to be a next time -- look at me, I've had a vastly different time around this month.
Hang in there girlie. I'm virtually holding your hand these 2 weeks, and hugs whenever you need it!
That sucks ass. I will be thinking of your one perfect embie though and maybe the other two ones (who are probably men) will get wise and start growing.. you know how lazy men can be...
Well that just sucks. Really sucks. Hoping those other 2 were just late bloomers.
Good luck on your transfer
Oh shit. Damn damn DAMN.
I will still be stubbornly hoping that one is all you need.
*hug*
Damn, damn, damn...
No words are comforting enough...but please know I am praying and thinking of you and your strong embryo.
Keep breathing.
Repeat. Repeatedly.
Life will go on. And it will be good. Of that we can be sure.
I'm keeping hope alive over here for you. I know you are disappointed and this isn't what any of us wanted for you - but I refuse to let hope die just yet. I'm still praying for you.
Sorry to hear that only one made it. But, there is still hope for this cycle :) Maybe it will be a little Christmas Miracle.
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